My Journey, My Story

Hi, my name is Tracy and this is My Journey, My Story. I am the voice behind the blog that encourages and inspires people to Enjoy the Journey as they Possess the Land. Funny thing about being the voice though, there comes a point where you have to show your face. For me, that’s the scary part because I’m so used to being in the background; in other words, not noticed. Just tonight, a girlfriend told me that I should be a motivational speaker. Yeah right, people will have to actually see me in order for me to speak to and motivate them. Nevertheless, I’d already come to that conclusion myself. I took that conversation as confirmation that this story was a step in the right direction to introducing myself to the world. So, let the motivating begin.

In August 2013, I asked God “where am I?” The night before at bible study, Pastor talked about being prepared for the test After you have reached success. Well, the area of my testing this morning obviously points toward the fulfillment of the vision of being a mother simply because I don’t have a man in my life right now. So I need to see what God sees so that I can say what God says. That’s why I asked Him the question.

I penned and published my first blog the day I found out the man I’d met on an online dating site turned out not to be the man he portrayed himself to be. I knew that for whatever reasons he’d gained what was in my heart, I couldn’t allow him to use against another unsuspecting person who was also looking for love online. I knew only I could express the true emotions I felt having endured those things I’d gone through in my quest to find love. Even though I wrote mostly the same things on my blog that I wrote to him in the letters we exchanged, I knew my words would encourage and inspire: whereas, his would be used to steal from and destroy someone emotionally.

How can I be so sure of that? Because I felt robbed and emotionally wounded when I found out he was scamming me. Here I am giving to him honesty about what I wanted and needed in a relationship and he just pretended to do the same. Shame tried to overtake me but I wouldn’t allow it. I was not ashamed of the fact that I’d decided to look for love online. I’d been hearing of people meeting their perfect match online and after years of telling myself that I wouldn’t do it, I’d finally signed up and met someone. Now, he wasn’t the first man I met online but he definitely has been the last. My point is not to discourage anyone from online dating. Online dating just didn’t work for me. No matter the route you take to meet someone: online or in person, don’t be afraid to give of yourself to the other person. I didn’t let what happened to me stop me from desiring a relationship.