Loving Single – 11

…in The End

If you remember the Short Story post titled, A Word, then you may know where I’m headed. If not, read it here then come back to this post. That way, you will be able to follow this post a little better.

I like to write a post as it happens in my life. Which means you may not get them in real time. But they always seem to get posted at the right time. It’s been almost a month since I wrote A Word. And on last week, I saw the lady that I gave the Word to with a man: not the man that started the competition in my mind.

Well, right after that, I got a life-changing report from my doctor. Yes, there are posts for that too. Not sure if they’ve been published yet or not. However, during this time, I started really looking at life and how I was living it. I started doing things that I kept putting off until “one day”. I started living.

I stopped making excuses for why I didn’t do this, or go there or even have that. I started flirting, dancing and just getting out of the house more. Then one afternoon as I was dealing with a migraine headache that was now on day two, I decided to reach out to a friend that was a friend to the man – from the competition in my head.

My thought process was that I hated for it to take pain in my body to move me toward reaching for a relationship that I have desired for a while. But the thought that if something had happened to me before going to the doctor, I would never have known if he and I could establish a relationship.

I didn’t want the should haves, could haves or would haves to be a part of my present keeping me from building a future. So I texted her and asked her if there was a way for her to get us in contact with each other.

At the time that I plan to post this, I haven’t had those irrational thoughts about having to compete with her since before I got the Word. I look back now and I can see the trap that I fell for when I believed those lies. They kept me bound to a wrong belief that I had to help God provide “who” I wanted in my life. Now, I’m in agreement with God that “who” He has for my life, will be in my life.