Each week I have a meeting with God to check in about the way my life is progressing. Tonight, you will be the topic of discussion – the relationship portion that I usually gloss over at each meeting. I’m Scared. I have to be totally honest with Him and let Him know that I get this nervous anxiety when I think of Us not being together… EVER! Why do you matter so much that I can’t fathom Us not ever being in a relationship? Next year will be 10 years since you first approached me – but I had my nose wide open to some other man at the time…
Four years after your initial approach, you approached me again. This encounter will forever be etched in my heart and my mind. I remember dreamily telling my coworkers every detail of that event. They fell in love with you and cheered me on to believe that we could have a relationship. Nothing ever came of it though. Then I started seeing you constantly with other women. I’m really Scared now. What if you decide one of them is better suited for you than me?
So here I am today, seeing your picture and afraid to delete it but knowing that this hopeless feeling I have must be addressed. I plan to be upfront and honest with God tonight about everything. There are some things God has revealed to me about my relationship and His plan for my life that allows me to continue to hope in the fact that if anyone can bring the two of us together, it’s God.
My Journey, My Story 