There’s a blog post written simultaneously with today’s post; read it here. I finally released my will for you AND our life and family for God’s will for my life… PERIOD. How this all will unfold is so beyond me that even I don’t have the imagination to put it into words. All I know is that I have to write… But what will I write? How this morning I asked God things I’m not sure if I’ll ever get an answer for. Or if I’ll even care if I did get the answer.
Some days – ok at this point, years, I’m so tired of hoping, wishing and praying for our miracle that finally brings us together. I just want “it” to be over already. The first look, the first phone call and especially the first date. When, where and how are becoming bad words in my life concerning being in a relationship. I hate the way I feel when I express either of them when thinking or talking about Us. This Dying to Self just got real Real.
Looking beyond the right now and my current status has ignited a resurrected hope within me that no matter the path I take, God’s will for my life is always the best option. Sure, I didn’t choose to get to this stage in life and still not have what I thought was due me. Nevertheless, her I am. To continue on without truly living because of a couple of things I didn’t get would display the utmost disrespect to the life and death of Jesus. So I’m dying to self because He died so that I might have life and have it more abundantly.
My Journey, My Story 