I Passed the Test
I found out something today. Not that I wasn’t supposed to know about it. But that for me to find out about it means that the decision I made really was the best decision for my life. That there’s truly no longer a barrier between You and I coming together and being together in a healthy, God-centered relationship. What did I find out? That the man that I wanted all those years ago STILL did not want me.
How does that information affect me? In a positive way actually. Why? Because I truly know that I NO LONGER want him. I want You! And I told God that I wanted You… not him. I meant it with my whole heart. I can see You and I living purposefully together, whereas, he and I would wander around life aimlessly trying to make each other “fit”. That is never a good plan. Read about being willing to walk alone here.
As I sit here updating this post months later, this may seem out of order from the next few scheduled posts but it so resonates with what’s happening in my life that I HAD to add it. When I previewed the posts to come, I saw that this post actually fits right in, so here goes. I’ve often wondered how I would know that you are You. On today, it was revealed to me how I would know: You pray for me, You’re there for me and You have honest communication with me. Here, I’ve been trying to make these men in my life do for me what comes natural to You to do for me… Wow.
To know that the values I desire in a husband are the values that come naturally for you with me made me cry in thanksgiving today. To realize that God has favored me with a man who’s heart is exactly in line with the desires of my heart is humbling. I truly am grateful that the test of wanting who I’ve wanted for years has been passed and that I have gained the person that God has destined for me to engage life.
My Journey, My Story 