Disappointment

Have you ever given someone more than one chance to live up to the expectation that you knew they were capable of reaching? But time and time again you were Disappointed by their actions. Then when it really mattered that they honored the vow they made, you no longer cared whether or not they would come through. And you guessed it, they do not come through yet again; even though you secretly hoped that they would.

Well, I’m at that place right now where I want to still care and pray for a favorable outcome. However, I also want to stay as far away from any type of negative environment. I want to protect what’s mine from any limiting influences because I’m holding on to something that I should have let go of a long time ago. I should have let go of needing people to keep their word to me. I should have let go of thinking people who don’t keep their word consistently will one day wake up and be a changed person. I should have let go of accepting people’s actions as the final say in the situation.

What I should be doing is embracing who I am regardless of how other people behave. I should continue to believe the best; in spite of being handed the worst. I should know the full weight of the words spoken to me; because I should know the integrity, not just the reputation of the person speaking those words. I should not react out of Disappointment because of someone’s actions; I should react in Love. Those are the things that I should be doing.

At the time that I’m writing this post, I didn’t do any of the things that I should have done. What I did do was take a mental health break from work, stayed in the bed and wrote this post. Why? Because I want you to know that I don’t have everything figured out and neatly packed up. Sometimes, people and situations are challenging and today was one of those days for me. I just wanted some time by myself to regroup and prepare myself for tomorrow.

I challenge you to not give in to Disappointment by thinking you have to stay strong in front of people so they know that you aren’t as bothered as you really are. Take some time to feel what you feel. But always, always get back in the game. You were born to WIN!!!